It is tough to protest when life tosses you a curveball and you have no other choice but to let it go past you. You might want to take control over the crisis, no matter how hard or how many times you try, life just doesn’t add up the way you want it to. Things tend to fall in the wrong place. It becomes harder with every passing day to deal with the shit going on for the longest time. The chaotic state of mind and pissed-off chunks of your heart makes you anxious and nervous.
Sometimes, you get through and other times it completely consumes you.
Pain is the most realistic part of everyone’s life, but that doesn’t mean it’s an essential part of life. The pain and the endless agony, it’s going to hurt. There is no denying that.
PEOPLE AND RELATIONSHIPS
Hey listen, life will test you. But you gotta be strong. People close to you are going to hurt you, break you, and smash your heart into pieces. Your courage will be judged. Because when the suffering comes via loved ones, it costs too much. It costs you time and energy. It costs your mental health and sanity. It costs you all the emotions you have invested in the person.
At some point, you will consider what is indispensable to you. The connection or your well-being.
Try paying attention to whom your energy boosts and drops around because that’s the universe giving you a hint of whom you should be with. It is very disheartening and hard to choose yourself over any relationship (coz that’s what we’re taught from the very beginning, to stick with it and ignore the wronged). But you should know that you are brave enough to get over it and that you don’t gain without some loss. That all things come in two including pain and joy. When you realize that self-care retains more power than any of the XYZs, you are going to realize what is self-love. The first step to self-care is giving a shit about yourself.
Soon you’ll make peace with yourself for the first time in the longest time. You can search throughout the entire universe for someone more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
DUNGEON AND ESCAPE
Some days, you’ll find yourself tamed in a shady, and gross place, a whimsical dungeon surrounded by dire predictions and shunned feelings. These feelings will victimize you, and torment you. Probably make you think like you don’t have any kind of access to the outer world. You will be too damaged to maybe fix yourself even if you got a chance.
DON’T GIVE UP. LOOK FOR REDEMPTION.
Deep down you know you want to escape from the insecurities that are holding you back, somehow you are too drained to notice that there is always a way out of hell. Especially when the mastermind is you.
Our feelings are very complicated, but they exist for a reason.
Like magic, life also has loopholes. There’s always a catch behind every freaking happening on this planet. You just have to be more vigilant, when you need one. The high walls of your insecurity and outlook towards life are what are keeping you to escape the dark side of yours. Let go of them. They are not worthy of you.
Learn to fly free. Don’t be afraid to let go. Once you find the tool to dismantle the high walls, there will be a ray of joy to start all over again. You’re meant to heal what hurts you, you’re not supposed to live in misery forever.
You can always start again. No matter how bad you feel, how hard you have hit rock bottom again, or how little energy and will you have left to keep holding on, deep down you know that recovery is possible.
Trust me, you’ll shine like a crystal on a flower.
LIFE AND CONSPIRACY
What I’m trying to say is life doesn’t work the way you plan it to be. Life hasn’t been the way I expected it to be. It is disappointing. I agree. Well, here is what I discovered over the past few years about life and since then I have been aiming to get a more accurate slant to it.
Life is what it is – cruel, tough, and impossible sometimes. Whether you like it or not, the truth is never going to change. But to my surprise, what you can change is your attitude towards life by investing in yourself.
Over the years, I have learned to let go of what I can’t control, such as relationships, jobs, college, etc. That’s not to say that it gets any easier as time goes on, but God did equip me with the tools that I need in that season. Some seasons, I can get through the storm without hesitation, and other seasons, such as the one I’m currently in, I find it hard to get through a single day.
I’m learning to make peace with life and so can you.
You Need And Deserve Love During All Time.
In the end, always know ‘Life is Intriguing and Challenging’.
You are so strong and capable and you can do this. Please do not be so hard on yourself; you have not blown up, you have not failed – you are given the chance to start over and recreate yourself and I know that you will get through this.
P.S.: You have made it out of gray places more times than you could ever imagine, so what makes you think that this time is different?
SALONI'S PEN 